Piggy Bank Confessions
First Posted on Myspace on April 10th, 2006
Before this weekend I may have said that change is a good thing. I would say change equals growth. But I think there's something to be said for playing by the rules.
I had a very disappointing weekend with an old roommate of mine. She tried college for awhile than decided that she liked to have sex more than she liked going to class, which is a shame 'cause I thought she was smarter than me. She dropped out and never looked back.
I really wish she would have. Than maybe she could realize what an utter mess her life has become. If she looked back she could compare the relatively easy life she used to have with her current downward spiral.
I don't consider myself a huge success. I did graduate college and am working in TV which is what I wanted. However I'm making crappy money, which is not what I wanted. But I do make enough to realize that there is something terribly wrong with working 9 hours and taking home $30. It's even more wrong to be excited about it.
Not being able to feed your dog because you absolutely don't have ten bucks is pathetic. Being ok with having a tooth pulled and left that way is not ok, it's trashy. Considering sex with strangers as a means to pay rent is called being a whore. And buying drugs instead of food is illegal.
I truly never even considered that this would be the fate of my friend. She used to be so like me and we got along great. I've mostly kept my opinions about her life choices to myself because I have learned that you keep friends better that way. But now not only am I disappointed in her, I'm mad at myself.
Realistically I know there is nothing I could have done, but I wish I had done something. I know my disapproval wouldn't mean much but maybe I should have shown it more. If I had questioned her choices and been more involved after college perhaps it wouldn't have gotten to this point.
I guess I though she'd grow out of it. Funds got pretty low at times for me in college and I could sympathize with her. But me being poor was always temporary. I had my parents support to fall back on, and I was working toward a better life.
She however will most likely end up as poor white trash and do time for possession. I still love her to death which makes it hard to accept that she seems fine with the changes in her life.
Before this weekend I may have said that change is a good thing. I would say change equals growth. But I think there's something to be said for playing by the rules.
I had a very disappointing weekend with an old roommate of mine. She tried college for awhile than decided that she liked to have sex more than she liked going to class, which is a shame 'cause I thought she was smarter than me. She dropped out and never looked back.
I really wish she would have. Than maybe she could realize what an utter mess her life has become. If she looked back she could compare the relatively easy life she used to have with her current downward spiral.
I don't consider myself a huge success. I did graduate college and am working in TV which is what I wanted. However I'm making crappy money, which is not what I wanted. But I do make enough to realize that there is something terribly wrong with working 9 hours and taking home $30. It's even more wrong to be excited about it.
Not being able to feed your dog because you absolutely don't have ten bucks is pathetic. Being ok with having a tooth pulled and left that way is not ok, it's trashy. Considering sex with strangers as a means to pay rent is called being a whore. And buying drugs instead of food is illegal.
I truly never even considered that this would be the fate of my friend. She used to be so like me and we got along great. I've mostly kept my opinions about her life choices to myself because I have learned that you keep friends better that way. But now not only am I disappointed in her, I'm mad at myself.
Realistically I know there is nothing I could have done, but I wish I had done something. I know my disapproval wouldn't mean much but maybe I should have shown it more. If I had questioned her choices and been more involved after college perhaps it wouldn't have gotten to this point.
I guess I though she'd grow out of it. Funds got pretty low at times for me in college and I could sympathize with her. But me being poor was always temporary. I had my parents support to fall back on, and I was working toward a better life.
She however will most likely end up as poor white trash and do time for possession. I still love her to death which makes it hard to accept that she seems fine with the changes in her life.
posted by SassyJill at 9:50 PM
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