Pipe Dreams

I've fallen into a rut that sometimes happens with me. See, if nothing new or exciting has happened in my life I kinda drop of the radar. Meaning I forget to call my family or friends(or blog), cause I have nothing to say. It's bad because I should be calling them to see if they have anything to say. But alas, I figure if something's going on they'll let me know.

So nothing real big happening with me. Works fine, JR's great, Wedding Planning...is well, kinda halted at the moment. Not that I've lost interest, I just don't know what to do next. JR asked me a few days ago that now that we have our ceremony and reception site locked in what's next?

I didn't really have an answer for him. I mean I guess we should figure out the "mood" of the wedding and maybe our colors. But I sorta want to wait and see about a dress first. Of all the dresses I've looked at online I've found one that I love. But I need to see it in person and try it on. And I'm trying not to get my heart set on it in case it doesn't match the overall "theme" we end up choosing. But it is a great dress.

Two big reasons I've not run out to David's Bridal to try this dress on just for kicks. One, I promised sister that I'd go dress shopping with her when she comes to Michigan for Christmas.

Reason two being that I'm still trying to lose those last 10 or 15 pounds before I look for a dress. I'm not gonna be a bride who wants only the dress she'd look good in after she's lost 20 lbs. I want to try on a dress and be able to say "If I stay at this weight I'll still look great in this dress."

So I'm stalling, but I have been working out on a regular basis, and I haven't gained any weight like I feared I would when I moved to Toledo. On a side note: My gym is an all ladies gym but a few weeks ago they had a bake-sale. Not a "healthy snacks" bake sale, it was a full out temptation buffet. My thinking is that they either made a killing, or didn't sell a damn thing.

I for one thought it was cruel. My self control is pretty good nowadays, but a lot of the women at the gym have quite a ways to go before they can lose the obese status. I wish them the best, but it's gotta be hard when even your own gym is trying to get you to cheat.

Yup, life is pretty normal right now, which is good. I've started writing a book, on chapter six right now. I figured with all the money I sink into the publishing industry each month, I should take a shot at being an author myself.

I know it has a 0.01% chance of becoming anything, but I'm enjoying myself. And since it is a romance novel JR's going to help me with "research" every now and again. I don't hear him complaining.

On yet another side note. A friend blogged about some weird dreams she's been having lately. Well I too have been having some frightening dreams myself. Several nights(or days depending on my work schedule) a week for the past month I've been having dreams in which I'm pregnant.

I'm not, pregnant that is. But I'm wondering where this idea is coming from. Yes, I do want kids very much, but I sure as hell don't want them right now. It could be because I know several women who are pregnant or just had babies. The dreams also seem to occur on days that I go to the gym.

To explain, almost every time I go to the gym I see at least one pregnant woman there. Usually it's the same three or four women. It always bothers me to see them because they are VERY pregnant, but in obviously better shape than me. One of them even uses the dumbells.

Now, I'm no expert but it seems to me that these women shouldn't be straining themselves so much. When a 7 month pregnant lady can out pace me on the treadmill I worry about the fetus's health. I'm sure a light workout is great for both mom and baby, but these ladies seem obsessed. I could be wrong.