I'm Dying

First posted on MySpace on May 12th, 2006


Or not. Hell I dunno. The dilemma:

I've had gray hair since I was fifteen. Most noticeable when I part my hair down the center. It's still only a couple of strands here and there but it's the whole strand so if I get a flyaway it's obvious.

Usually I don't care much, I mean it's just hair right? But lately I've been feeling good about the way I look. I've lost weight, bought some good clothes, I'm taking care of my skin, and now it's my hair's turn I guess.

I hate spending money of appearance stuff since I don't consider it terribly important. I'd much rather blow a wad of cash on some books or movies. Keeping in line with my cheapness, I always color my hair myself. And when I say always I mean like maybe once a year. So I feel like it's "that" time of year again. Especially since my hair was reflecting silver light today in my bathroom mirror.

I like to go dark, I was born with almost jet-black hair, and I think it looks exotic with my pale skin. Others would disagree, like my mother for one. Which is why the hair dye I bought two months ago is sitting in a drawer and not on my head. It's Dark Brown, which Mom thinks is way too dark.

I dunno why I give a damn what she thinks but every time I mention I'm going dye my hair she gets this pained expression like I'm committing some fashion sin, as if she's one to talk. I can never bring myself to say, "screw your opinion" and just do it. And so here I sit, old lady hair and all.

But I may change that this weekend. I mean I will eventually breakdown and dye my hair some color to hide the gray but I don't know if I should do it this weekend or wait a few more weeks. See, I'm going to a wedding reception next weekend and I really want to look good since I hardly ever see these people and I'm gonna want a lot of pictures.

The risk is that maybe my Mom's right and I'll look really strange. So is a week enough time to let a bad color fade if I don't like it, and at the same time if I do like it will it last? I mean it's a permanent dye, but my hair is fine and doesn't hold anything well, plus our water is softened so it'll fade the color more quickly than city water.

Oy, what to do what to do? I won't even get into the debate of whether to get a haircut or not. God, that's like a twice a year ordeal for me and it's only been a few months. But it's getting to the point where I'd rather wear it up and that gives me headaches after awhile ::sigh::

Well anyway, guess I'm all Blogged out. Which is fine, although it's National Limerick Day so I'll leave you with a little ditty I once heard:

There once was a man from Nantucket,
Whose thumb was sore so he sucked it,
As he looked at his shin,
He said with a grin,
If I had a Frisbee I could play some disc-golf.

Hmm, that didn't seem quite right. Seems like it was missing something, oh that's right, all the dirty parts. Well whatcha expect sicko, some members of my family read this blog... geez!