Accio Decision

I need help (not THAT kind.)

There are about 30 great pictures of us for our engagement, and I can't seem to narrow it down. I made a slideshow.. please, please, please help me by telling me which three you like best. It'd be even better if you told me your fav.

Thanks so much!!!

P.S. I'm confused about the ending to Harry Potter.. anyone else?

Happy Anniversary...

to me!

Well, not really. Hard to believe that it was only a year ago that I moved to Toledo. But here I am, one year later. Looking back it hasn't been all that bad, but it hasn't been good either.
Living with JR for the first time has been the ultimate test of our relationship, and I'm happy to say we've passed with flying colors. I think being together has only improved our bond and made us an unstoppable force. We were always good together, but now we're FANTASTIC.

Maybe that explains why other areas of my life feel so lacking.. it seems I can't have it both ways. I can't be with the man I love and be content with everything else. For so long I was focused only on finding a way to be with JR. I used to swear I would do ANYTHING to be with him more. Now that I've accomplished that, I feel as though I may have sold my soul to the devil.. dramatic yes, but so is my declining mental health.

Right now, I'm just trying to survive day by day that I sometimes miss the great moments with my man. What good is being with him if I can't enjoy him?

As I see it there are several acceptable ways out of my situation.. and I'd really rather not speak them aloud (or type) just yet. Another option.. we could just pack up and move back to Michigan and be with our friends and family... but at what cost? There are no jobs for JR and I can't support us.

So the real question I ask myself everyday.. is all the bullshit I face everyday worth the being able to live with JR in a fashion we've become accustomed to? Or is the price just too high? Right now the scales are balanced in favor of keeping the status quo.. but I'm not sure how much longer I can hold out. I'm so close to breaking it's not even funny.

But I will let everything go if my mental state starts to impact the peace and happiness I've found with JR.. I will NOT sacrifice my relationship with him. And anyone who thinks he shouldn't be my top priority can just FUCK OFF! (sorry that got a little violent at the end, but I've felt backed into a corner lately.)


Score card: (Grade on left from last year.. on right is current grades)

Romance: B-/A+
Body: B-/B
Home: F/A
Social Standing: A-/C
Job: B/D+

You tell me if you think it's worth it? What's the most important element in your life? Has that changed from a year ago?

P.S. i finally figured out my stupid password!