Original post Sept. 16th, 2007
It's weird how as the days count down to the wedding, I get less nervous. For now anyway. I have so much left to do, and yet it feels like I'm almost done. So much could still go wrong (i.e. the marriage licence has yet to go through,) but right now I'm just excited.
That's propably because it's Sunday and I can't make the gazillion phone calls I need to make until tomorrow. I'm trying to get the little things done like packing for the Honeymoon, and cleaning the apartment before my sister gets here.
I lucked out and only have to work Monday and Tuesday this week. Just about every minute of the next six days is planned out. I think producing the news has gone a long way in helping me organize the wedding. Like my job, it's a stressful race to the finish and despite all my careful planning I know something will go wrong.
Everyone warning me that stuff will go wrong, and I keep saying I know. I've long stopped trying to guess what will get screwed up... but I have tried to think of back-ups for everything. Again, this is where my job training comes in handy since being flexible and making last minute changes are all part of the game.
What I haven't given much thought to, until now, is how it'll feel to stand in front of everyone in a white dress and exchange vows with the man of my dreams. Honestly, when I try to picture that moment it's a little fuzzy. I still don't see myself in the "Bridal" role. All this planning and obsessing and I can't grasp that "I'm the Bride pay attention to me" feeling. For me a lot of the preparring has been about the guests.
The only way I've focused on me, is with my beauty plan. But I consider that more about torture then being pampered (got waxed again yesterday.. yikes.)
I just want everyone to have a good time.
That's propably because it's Sunday and I can't make the gazillion phone calls I need to make until tomorrow. I'm trying to get the little things done like packing for the Honeymoon, and cleaning the apartment before my sister gets here.
I lucked out and only have to work Monday and Tuesday this week. Just about every minute of the next six days is planned out. I think producing the news has gone a long way in helping me organize the wedding. Like my job, it's a stressful race to the finish and despite all my careful planning I know something will go wrong.
Everyone warning me that stuff will go wrong, and I keep saying I know. I've long stopped trying to guess what will get screwed up... but I have tried to think of back-ups for everything. Again, this is where my job training comes in handy since being flexible and making last minute changes are all part of the game.
What I haven't given much thought to, until now, is how it'll feel to stand in front of everyone in a white dress and exchange vows with the man of my dreams. Honestly, when I try to picture that moment it's a little fuzzy. I still don't see myself in the "Bridal" role. All this planning and obsessing and I can't grasp that "I'm the Bride pay attention to me" feeling. For me a lot of the preparring has been about the guests.
The only way I've focused on me, is with my beauty plan. But I consider that more about torture then being pampered (got waxed again yesterday.. yikes.)
I just want everyone to have a good time.
posted by SassyJill at 1:33 AM
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