Original post Feb. 14th, 2008

If you hadn't noticed I've been in a major funk since shortly after my wedding. Well, I've been looking for ways to change my bad attitude and I think I've found a winner. I'm signing up for a dance class, but not just any dance class... it's a pole dancing class.

That's right, as in a stripper pole.

I started taking dance lessons when I was around 5 or 6 and kept it up until High School where I was in several plays and musicals in which I danced. In fact I still have a pair of tap shoes that fit.

Anyway, I saw this story on another news station one day about the positive impact pole dancing is having on local women. I saw girls much bigger and less graceful then me having a blast and I wished I could be that happy again.

So I called the lady running the dance studio and signed up for a two month long class. I'm trying not to have too many high expectations. It has been a LONG time since I danced and I am way out of shape. But that's not the main reason I'm doing this, it's more about getting out there and meeting people. Even if I don't make friends I'll at least be socializing with people outside of work.

I also want to feel sexy again. I want to be that confident person I once was. The person who knew who she was and loved herself. This depression shit has got to go.